Thought for the day: " The best thing for me to do is to position my heart in a place where I can experience God."
Every day, the devotional has a title. Today's is..."Rainy Days and Mondays."
Ha! It's Monday. And I feel like I've been rained on all day. Fitting. It's funny, cause as I've mentioned before...He's gotta be working for me...cause every day seems to be extremely fitting. Have you ever seen the movie "Analyze This"? There is a scene...right after Robert DeNiro's character talks to Billy Crystal's character at the first counseling session, Robert starts shaking his finger and says..."You. You...You're good, you." That's what I say to God. LOL!
I've been feeling a little overwhelmed for a few days now. Things are off, and I don't really want to get into the reason why, so just trust me when I say they're off. I feel alone, sad, frustrated, and angry. There are a bunch of other feelings swarming around as well...but I'm not sure I can identify them all.
I need to remember that God has a plan for me. There's a reason I'm feeling this way. Maybe it's because I'm trying to open myself up more to God and Satan just keeps trying to break me. Maybe it's because once my feelings get hurt, I have a tendency to immerse myself in it. I wallow around in self pity and refuse to face what the real problem is. See, I hate conflict. I try to avoid it as much as possible. As a matter of fact, I avoid it much to my own detriment. I end up causing more hurt and pain to myself and others cause I just won't talk. Really gotta work on that.
In the devotional, the author has a list of things that she has to remind herself of when she's having a bad day. The one that hit me the hardest was: "I am not a slave to my feelings. I'm the boss of them." Ok..so basically...I'm in charge of my feelings. I CAN change them. I DON'T have to wallow in the hurt and the pain and the self-pity. Doesn't that sound wonderful?? Doesn't that sound like a marvelous gift??
Ok...so how do I do that?
No, really. How?
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